Friday, April 8, 2011

Totaled














 

The brief version: hydroplaned on the way to work last Thursday and wrapped my car around a HUGE road sign (the kind that list the gas stations or restaurants at the upcoming exit)... but I am FINE!!! I literally was picked up from the scene after I was cleared by EMTs and the police, taken home to call my insurance company, then picked up my rental car and went to work.  I have finally gotten the figure from my insurance company so right now I am car shopping... have to pick something in the next week because the rental (a freakin' Dodge Charger with a Hemi... they OBVIOUSLY do not know this girl) is due back next Thursday.

Looking seriously at a Nissan Murano... any thoughts?

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Faith

I have always been somewhat hesitant to talk about my faith on this blog for risk of offending anyone.  However, I've started to see that if you all truly like me (haha), you won't be offended by what is simply me sharing more of me with you... does that make sense?

Anyway, my faith has been suffering the last several years.  Growing up, I either went to church with my grandparents or aunt and uncle, but starting in high school that kind of stopped.  After the divorce, my parents began to focus on me having fun on the weekends so they could be the fun parent... that never really included church.  Mama and I started going back to church but we just didn't think that particular church was the right fit for us.

Then Daddy died.  I was so angry with God for taking him away from me when I was only 19.  I couldn't see that this was part of His plan.  It's only been in the last six months or so that I've really done a 180 about this.

I started going to the church I attend now when Mr. Preppy and I were dating.  His family and a ton of my friends and coworkers attend church there, so it seemed completely natural.  It is a good fit for me, and I was always eager to go every Sunday, but with Mr. Preppy working every Saturday night at first and then not living here, it just got pushed to the wayside.  When I started struggling more personally with everything last fall, I began to pray.  Heavily.  And my answer was basically get your behind to church and things will work out.

And did they... I'm in a MUCH better place now that I've stopped trying to make things happen for myself.  There's a quote I read the other day that truly explains how I've transitioned:
"There are two kinds of people: those who say to God, 'Thy will be done,' and those to whom God says, 'All right, then, have it your way.'" - C. S. Lewis

I went from the second kind to the first kind.  Knowing I have absolutely no control is frightening, but at the same time it's comforting... no matter what I do, the plan will continue as it is meant to.  I feel that everything is working out for me as He has intended, no thanks to me trying to mess everything up.  That includes my personal life, career, friends, family, school plans... everything.  For this Type A girl, it's been a struggle... but one well worth it.


Again, I apologize if talking about this offends anyone, I just want to be as open with y'all as you are with your readers. :)


xoxo,

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

News!

Ok, so I'm still working on changing the pictures in my layout, but bear with me please!

This week we are administering the Georgia High School Graduation Test (GHSGT) every day, so my work schedule is kind of messed up... I'm in the media center for my first four classes because they are testing in the rooms I use, then I have a classroom for my last two classes. This doesn't work well for last minute review (my students take the social studies GHSGT for the last time before graduation Thursday) since I don't have the same resources for all of my classes.

On the bright side, I held two afterschool tutoring sessions for the social studies GHSGT, one last Thursday and one yesterday, and had great attendance at both. It gives me hope that my kids are taking this seriously. Fingers are crossed and prayers are being said that they pass Thursday... this is the MOST stressful week at school. At least we have an AWESOME principal who declared it jeans week for teachers... not having to dress in heels and things makes it easier to relax. Case in point: I am wearing Seven jeans, a Vineyard Vines pink and green plaid oxford, and Sperrys to work today.

In other news... I have a new puppy (well, technically I got him March 6th)! He will be added to the Fur Family pics on the right side. He is a mess... his name is Lil Wayne but we're calling him Weezy (Can you tell my preppiness got outvoted? I wanted Charlie!)...

I took the last of my certification tests on Saturday and I have absolutely no idea how I did, it really could go either way. I will get my scores back April 25th, so please keep your fingers crossed for me!!

Spring break is next week for us, so you will hopefully be getting more updates then!

xoxo,

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Ten new pairs of shoes in one weekend... I have a problem.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Smiles

I never really realized how much I didn't smile until I began wondering why my face hurt at the end of every day.

Turns out I've been in a pretty good mood lately -- even my students could tell! I am so happy in my life decisions right now, just because I'm finally focusing on ME. I've applied for grad school and plan to begin this summer, I'm taking the last of my certification tests so I can be considered "highly certified," and I'm receiving an award for my "outstanding academic and leadership abilities" in a couple of weeks.

I also just got my first big girl paycheck, which feels absolutely incredible. I am still sticking to a budget, but I can actually add in fun things again, like manicures and pedicures and drinks with girlfriends.

I am so ready for spring to officially be here... I am thoroughly enjoying the fact that I wore a shift dress and peep toe heels to church this morning. I can't wait to lose the layers!!

How are you dolls doing?

Thursday, February 10, 2011

So here's what's been up.

Mr. Preppy and I broke up. It's kind of been coming, but it was just made official last night. It may or may not be permanent... I think we're still on different pages about that. I just haven't been happy in a long time. We don't hate each other, we're actually being very adult about it (scary, I know), but the fact that we're both so calm and emotionless about it seems to be a sign that we're doing the right thing.

Forgive me if I don't post for a while, though... I have to rethink my blog design so I can be on here without looking at pictures of past happiness constantly. New design will be strictly me, Preppy Pup, and my best girlfriends!

Monday, January 31, 2011

I'm Alive...

But that's about all that I'm certain I am. I'm unhappy. I'm frustrated. I'm intensely miserable and depressed. I'm confused about... well, a lot. I can't seem to get a grip on what I feel or what I want and I'm not sure how that happened.

The sobbing in the shower (hopefully) will not be repeated... but no promises are being made. I've cried every day for some reason over the last week. I started crying listening to my iPod on the way to work this morning, so I'm not exactly sure what the trigger is.

I don't know if it's stress and anxiety, but part of me thinks it's not. I'm familiar with those two, we go way back. This... this just feels like something new.

Honestly, I was chalking it up to PMS, but this overwhelming feeling of dread and kaleidoscope of emotions is lasting waaay too long for that to be it.

I just don't know... I'm most likely going to be venting (mostly incoherently) for a while.

Thank you for all the pick-me-ups, I have the best readers in the world!

Friday, January 28, 2011

Sobbing in the shower on a Friday night probably isn't the best sign of things to come... Update soon.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Agenda

On the to-do list for today?
  1. Work from 12-4 (I'm staying at my holiday job for weekends... keeping a little additional income plus my discount.)
  2. Return some things to Banana Republic.
  3. Figure out outfits for work (mall) tomorrow and the rest of the week (new job!).
  4. Buy plane tickets Tampa for the wedding I'm in in several weeks.
  5. Coordinate flights with Preppy in Pumps, who is flying down from Knoxvegas.
  6. Figure out how to book our hotel room and split it three ways.
  7. Try on my bridesmaid dress that FINALLY arrived so we can pin and hem it up (crossing my fingers that my slightly chunky arse has not spread any wider and that the dress will still fit correctly...).
Convince Mr. Preppy to go see Life As We Know It at the $2 theater tonight -- I've seen it, but he hasn't, and I want to see it again. I'm trying to convince him with the whole "set in Atlanta, Josh Duhamel works for the Hawks, rides a motorcycle" stuff of boy-interest.

What are you lovelies doing today?

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Remember this post? I was very upset... very hurt and angry that people would go out of their respective ways and leave negative comments. The world doesn't need that kind of extra negativity floatin' around it, which is why I chose to dis-allow it by doing moderated comments.

Truthfully, no negative comments have been attempted since, so I'm hoping that means these Negative Nancy's (Nancies?) have un-bookmarked and un-targeted my blog as an outlet for their frustrations.

So, after much contemplation (really, I'm not 100% positive I want to do this, if it backfires it will only add to the stress I'm under right now), I have decided to let y'all comment without being moderated.

And I'd like to thank all of you that left a comment on the last post. Things are still up in the air, but the cream really does seem to be working miracles again. I'm waiting on referrals to both an allergist and a dermatologist to come through, and to be able to work around my upcoming teaching schedule to make appointments. I love and appreciate each and every one of you, thank you again for all of your support, from the bottom of my heart.

XOXO,

Monday, January 10, 2011

Undiagnosed

Shortly after Christmas, I developed a tiny bump on my right cheek. It felt similar to a mosquito bite so I assumed that's what it was (forgetting entirely that it is winter and I haven't seen a mosquito in several months). I scratched at it a little, but I wasn't overly concerned. I put some hydrocortisone cream on it and went to bed. The next morning around 6:30 I woke up to that spot being a little more red (which I attributed to picking at it in my sleep, which I usually do) and a general red splotchy-ness across my left cheek, which I brushed off as pressure spots and pillow creases.

Fast forward to 8:00. I walked in the bathroom to check on the "bite," only to see that the splotchy-ness had NOT gone away and had actually gotten worse. It was a noticable rash in a butterfly pattern on either side of my face. I texted Mama a picture and called her so she could tell me what to do. She told me to call the doctor ASAP and to call into work since she thought I could be contagious.

I went to my OB/GYN since I used to work for him and he would see me without charging me (although on a sidenote, I was allowed to go back on Mama's insurance as of January 2nd, but since this was before then, I was a uninsured). Between my doctor and two of the nurses in the office we came up with the following list of possibilities: allergy (food or other) that has developed at this point in my life, unusual detergents (which I haven't been around), hair products landing on my washcloths that I use for my face (since my volume spray and hairspray and other junk circulates through my bathroom when I spray it or have the hairdryer on, it's possible it got onto the washcloths that are folded near the shower), or lupus.

Yup, lupus. If you aren't familiar the name, it is an autoimmune disorder. It symptoms can include a butterfly rash on the face (check) and achy feelings similar to pre-flu symptoms (check for two days before the rash appeared), as well as shortness of breath (check) and anemia (check). It can be triggered by extreme stress (let me remind you I'm on anti-anxiety and antidepressants as a DIRECT result of the stress I have been under for roughly the last two years.) and can also cause a worsening in depression and anxiety. Cue the freak-out.

After us all agreeing we couldn't pinpoint the exact cause, he put me on a 6 day steroid regimen and called in some steroid cream for my face, and proceeded to make me promise I wouldn't stress because that would only make it worse (this was the Thursday before my Monday interview). I went to Kroger to pick up my medicine and children literally got grossed out at my face... I felt like the Beast.

Anyway, it cleared up enough by my interview that I could cover it with makeup, so I basically just wrote it off as a fluke thing that would be funny later. Except...

Now it's back. It's not as strong as it was before, but it is definitely a butterfly rash on either side of my face. I've been using my steroid cream for the last two nights (I just noticed it after I took my makeup off Saturday night), but it hasn't gotten any better. It also hasn't gotten any worse, but it is starting to itch again. To top it off, my doctor's office is closed due to weather (we got a snow day today, yay for pajamas and peppermint hot chocolate), so I can't get him to see me unless I go to his house (yes, I could do that if I wanted. Palmetto Preppy's mama is also his nurse, so I could just go to her house and have her look at it, too. Sadly, the snow and ice have my car blocked into my driveway since our house is at the top of a steep hill so I can't do either of those.), which I can't do today. I'm waiting until tomorrow to see if it gets any better, but if I can still see it AT ALL I will be calling him and going to see a dermatologist and/or allergy specialist.

Please keep your fingers crossed that I've just developed an allergy to something... I'm not sure how I would handle having something more severe.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

News...

So...

I GOT THE JOB!

I will be teaching social studies study skills for the Georgia High School Graduation Test at a rural Georgia school, which isn't my first choice, but it IS a way to get my foot in the door and a way to get where I want to be. Everything has happened pretty quickly, and I will actually be starting on the 12th instead of the 18th if everything goes well at the school board meeting on the 11th. From what the principal has said, there is no reason to believe that things won't go through.

I am heading back down there tomorrow to get fingerprinted and have my background check done and start on all the housekeeping things.

Now, I can focus on praying for Mr. Preppy to get a job back here!

Monday, January 3, 2011

Today's interview was my first for a teaching position. That being said, I feel that it went extremely well, but I have nothing to compare it to, so it could have gone horribly for all I know. The run down on the job is this:
  • 5 month contract, no benefits BUT I will get a first year teaching salary so that will help (not to mention after two years, I'm finally back on Mama's insurance - the ONLY part of that bill that I don't discuss I find beneficial - so that won't really be an issue)
  • position is for teaching study skills for students who haven't passed the state graduation test in social studies (basically making sure they are able to pass and graduate because it's their last chance to do so)
  • floating position (meaning I will have no classroom to myself... I will use empty rooms throughout the day and have a desk in one of the rooms)
  • in a rural county 40 miles away where the entire system is under a million grants and other plans that put severe restrictions and requirements on the school
  • fabulous resources in each classroom - laptops for students, interactive white boards in every room, any supply you need
I've heard from someone that I know at the school that I'm the front-runner for the position, but until they recommend whoever to the board for hiring on the 11th, I won't officially know anything.

I've also started Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred AGAIN since the last time I tried it I came down with something midway through. I am in a good friend's wedding February 5th and before the holidays I didn't need any alterations to my dress except hemming and I REFUSE to have it let out, so I will be getting toned if it kills me.

Procrastinating before an interview...

Just a quick note before I head out to my first big-girl job interview... wish me luck!

No suit (I argue over whether as a teacher you truly need one or not), but I am going to be in a professional, yet cute and entirely teacher-appropriate outfit:

Black Banana Republic Trousers
White Lilly Pulitzer Ruffle-y Oxford (I can't remember the exact name, but it has tiny ruffles at the cuffs, down the buttons, and instead of a collar)
Green Banana Republic Argyle Raised Weave Cardigan
Black Nine West Heels
Tiffany Bow Necklace
Banana Republic Glass Pearl and CZ studs
HandPicked Monogrammed Charm on my pearl bracelet
...and finally, my ginormous new bag that is doubling as a briefcase today... yes, it is that big.